Every year Marcus ran the 400 meters at the district championship, and every year he told himself the same thing: he was not nervous. He was ready.
This year he was nervous.
His best competitor, a boy named Deshaun from Jefferson Middle, had run a 54.2 in the regional qualifier. Marcus's personal best was 54.8. The difference was six-tenths of a second—less than the time it took to blink—but in a 400-meter race it might as well have been a wall.
Coach Reyes found him sitting on the infield grass forty minutes before the race.
"You're spiraling," Coach Reyes said.
"I'm fine," Marcus said.
"You're doing math in your head. Stop doing math."
Marcus looked up. "He ran a 54.2."
"I know," Coach Reyes said. She sat down beside him. "Tell me what happens in the first hundred meters."
"I hold back. Build."
"Then?"
"Back straight. Push through the curve."
"And the last hundred?"
"Everything I have left."
"That's your race," she said. "Not his. You don't run against a number. You run your race as well as you possibly can, and the result is the result."
Marcus ran. At the gun, Deshaun went out hard. At two hundred meters, he was ahead by four steps. At three hundred, three steps.
In the last hundred meters, Marcus ran his race.
The finish was close enough that they both stopped and looked at the scoreboard. Deshaun had won by two-tenths of a second.
Marcus stood there breathing hard. He looked at his own time: 54.1.
He had run a personal best—faster than Deshaun's qualifier—and still lost.
He thought about what Coach Reyes had said: the result is the result. He didn't feel great about it. But somewhere underneath the disappointment, he understood.